So. Yeah. It was like ... CRAZY.
I feel pretty good today, so you won't get a whiny rant.
But it was certainly crazy busy. I felt so tired. Drained. Exhausted. Worn out. Frazzled.
And that was BEFORE the break! It certainly didn't do any good. @_@
There was just a lot cluttered busyness.
Saturday and Sunday my brother Peter was down from Canada. So Saturday we dyed eggs together (that was fun). Of course, that was after a FULL day of running around errands. @_@ I went to Tarzan rehearsal with Shani, because I MISS her, and I needed people. So, that was good, but tiring. I also need to get busy finishing off that Tarzan booklet of drawings for Jane's journal.
Anyway, then Sunday, my family had Easter dinner together, since Peter was down. Also nice, but so. dreadfully. tired.
Then, Monday, Shani and I started dog-sitting for Rochelle. I also had to go into to work and work for my boss on her yardsale.
I hate yard sales. Passionately. This particular yardsale was also quite difficult because I disagreed with EVERYTHING my boss did. *facepalm* From what she chose to sell, how she chose to set it up, the organization of the sale, the signs, the timing ... And I just had to be really sweet and respectful, "All right." "Sure." AAAAARG! I mean, it is just a yard sale, but IT WAS SO AGGRAVATING.
(My boss is very unorganized, and has a lot and a lot and a lot of things. And indescribable amount of things. Also, I know how to do yard sales. I've done probably around 200 in my life. So yeah. SO FRUSTRATING.)
Anyway, then I went back to Rochelle's, picking up my sisters on the way, and had nachos with Shani and them. That was nice. Then I went with my sisters back to my parents, and spent the night there.
Mom and Dad were at the beach and wanted someone there to watch them.
I really, really don't understand why.
I woke up at 3am to damp blankets.
Gin had peed on me.
This was not amusing. I had to strip myself, and throw all my clothes in the washer. I borrowed some of my parents clothes, and crawled into their bed to sleep.
It. Was. Not. Restful.
Then I got up early enough to drop Carolyn off at horse camp. Alainna graciously made breakfast for us. (She's sweet like that). Then I took care of all the dogs at Rochelle's (Shani stayed the night there, but wasn't up yet). Then I spent Tuesday out there caring for the dogs. Not incredibly difficult, just loud and constant.
I stayed the night Tuesday, to let out the dog with new puppies. She needed out like every hour or something insane. Part of that was because she would do her little potty dance, and I would let her out. Then she wouldn't GO TO THE BATHROOM. So 20 minutes later she'd be at it again! Auuugh! AUGH I SAY, AUGH!
Then I had to hustle over to work to work on Cheryel's yard sale some more. It was supposed to be sale day, but they were still setting up. =_= Urf. Then back to Rochelle's so Shani could go to work (she showed up while I was at Cheryel's. We basically tag-teamed the dogs). I waited till they got back, and then that evening was church practice for the Easter service.
I was so tired. SO TIRED.
Thursday (are you tired yet? I am.) I actually had a day off. But it didn't work out very well. I was extremely agitated, I couldn't rest, I spent all day doing errands, and being upset. Caleb came over that evening, and that was nice.
Friday it was back to work for me to finish off the yard sale. (I really, really, REALLY hate yard sales). It was hard and frustrating again because I in no way agreed with the prices Cheryel was selling. I felt like she was sabotaging herself, and I just wanted to shout, "JUST SELL THE THINGS, CHERYEL. LET THEM GO!" But I didn't.
Self-restraint is a good thing and I have a lot of practice at it.
Saturday ... Oh yeah! Church practice. And I think Shan and I went to Shari's. I know there was stuff the rest of the day ...
Oh, Shani and I have been trying to rent Rise of the Guardians from Redbox all week. XD It's always out.
Sunday was Easter. Service went well. (I was in charge). I actually got our congregation to CLAP! I felt like fist pumping, and doing a victory dance! (Our congregation does NOT get enthusiastic about singing or clapping!) Then I spent the day with Shani's family. That was nice.
Since my family had Easter the weekend previous, Amy & Bry went to Amy's side of the family, and Mom felt like she needed to go down to Medford to be with her sisters.
I did not go. I was exhausted enough, and after the trip to Pomeroy, I vowed NEVER to ride in the back of the Buick with my sisters for over an hour EVER AGAIN. It was MISERABLE. Not that my sisters are awful, but three full-grown bodies do NOT fit in that back seat. It's bearable for the first hour, but after that you just want to scream, "STOP TOUCHING ME!" But they can't because you're all squished together. Ugh. And we couldn't afford to take our car down, and in any case, like I said,
I WAS DEAD TIRED.
Easter at the Peet's was fun. It was nice to participate in what I've heard about it for years. XD Egg dying was EXTREME. I was really impressed by what they could do with just the dye. o_O It was amaaazing.
And the egg hunt was fiendish. I only found 16. XD And those were hard for me to find! Then Shani and I went home to rest.
Monday there was no school. I laid on the couch all day and watched documentaries. I went to the library, but I was too tired even to READ apparently, and I couldn't sleep. Brain just whirring along like a crazy thing.
So, I've been so exhausted. It's actually starting to worry me. I'm going to take really good care of myself over the next week or so, and if I'm still this tired, I'm going to the doctor, because something is wrong.
Of course, it doesn't help that for the past 2 weeks I've had very restless sleep, woken up multiple times, and had nightmares every night. That does not make you feel rested.
Shani has started giving me a rub every night, and that's helping the restlessness. I didn't have a bad nightmare last night, just dreams, so that was good. I feel better today.
I also made a point of getting 8 hours, and organizing my morning around quiet and routine. That might be helping me too. When I organize my day around me being important, I feel better. I think it's because I am in control of the things, instead of the things being in control of me.
I'm not being narcissistic, I'm making sure my basic needs are met. Like spending some quiet time with tea when I wake up, reading my Bible and praying, taking time to clean up after myself, cooking and eating nutritious food. Even those basic things are really hard for me to step up and say, "I am important enough to take care of myself."
Which is ridiculous, but there it is.
I wrote an email to my friends, and said I wanted to hang out more. Favorable responses, and now I'm roleplaying with Ria and it's awesome. I've heard more from Bethany, also awesome! David and I are trying to call each other occasionaly. So far all we've accomplished is phone tag, BUT IT'S A START. Kim even emailed me! She suggested we do postcards, and I'm like "Yay!"
I did think it was interesting that a few people responded that it wouldn't be the way when we were children. I'm not sure why people said that. Whether they were interpreting that I wanted things to be the way they were when we were children, or ... what. I did compare our relationship from when we were children, and Shani said the tone was child-like (which I don't mind. Child-ish, yes. Child-like, well that's part of who I am. And that's okay.), and I did title it "Will you play with me."
But I do want people to play with me! Play is important, even when you're adult. Laughter binds up relationships as much as love. (Healthy laughter. Laughing-to-cover-up is NOT healthy).
Anyway, it was just interesting, because I'm totally aware things will be different from childhood relationships. We're not children. But the intimacy, fellowship and love we had when we were children, that is what I am aiming for and want. And that will be expressed in different ways. We'll have to learn each other as adults. And that is good.
Anyway!
I've noticed I start paragraphs with anyway a lot, and it drives me slightly crazy! I use it as a transitivie note. =_=
FURTHERMORE, (that's better), I better toddle off. Chapel is next, and then home!
Lunch at home. Eeee! And then a NAP!
AND I HAVE THE EVENING OFF! SOOOOO EXCITED!
